Sometimes life can get you down,other times life lifts you up. You can't have one with out the other. you can't have the good without the bad. Like dust and Rainbows.I live my life to it's fullest and love it, but.......sometimes i feel lonely, misunderstood and feel like an outsider. i try to stay my bubbly, outgoing self. But sometimes i can't help but shed a tear or just lay around thinking of the negatives; not the popular girl, don't have the guy, don't have the physic, losing some friends b/c of location, don't have the personality or qualities others posess which i want. Some of you might understand how it feels, to feel alone. I am mostly an upbeat person and make people laugh no matter what i do from a joke to embarassing myself. My friends come to me for advice mostly cause i listen to what they have to say from the most dramatic to the most stupid information, i still listen. My friends, My family, & my music is everything to me. with exceptions of other things not as my everything as the aboves but still kinda important.
The friends i have are amazing, i have enough to fit 5 or 6 hands, a finger counting 1. but only 4 REAL best, truly sisters, separated at birth, finish eachothers sentences, understands completely, and hangs out with every single day.....while talking constantly, FRIENDs. But i know truly, 100% sure that one of those 4 is Brianna Moore, she is my other half, she's nice, funny, so fun to be around. We always hang out, go to the same school, always talk and like the same things, listen to generally the same music, have the same taste in guys.......ok not that ;). but alot of the things a long-lost sister acquires. I love her sooo much, and would be lost without her. i know her all to well and the same goes for her to me.
As for love, well i've had some crushes, some dates, but no real boyfriends. Not the one that, not to sound like a cliche, completes me. Some jerks, some 2-faced losers, some liars, and some "almost" guys. I can't even find a Mr.right-now, not that i always want that, hense the "right-NOW", i do eventually want true love. Not the one's you read in fairy tales, not that that's bad or anything, i mean who doesn't want prince charming and his good looks and sense of style (in that time period) and so on. But i want someone different, someone who loves me the way i am, someone who loves to act crazy, someone who is sentimental and sarcastic, someone who isn't afraid of being himself, someone who dances good and like a dork, someone who swears when necsessary and maybe more, someone who's fun and outgoing, someone who tells cheesy jokes, someone who sticks up for me even if it's from his friends, someone who is different than me, but at the same time the same, opposites attract. i know the time for me will come, "let the chips fall where they may."
Love is like life but alot more complicated, dramatic, and at times unbearalbe at times, thats why everyone wants it. It gives life a little spice and i love it mostly cause whenever you have a fight the woman ALWAYS wins, 99.9% of the time. I love it. it's funny and true, ask anyone. lol.
I'll keep you posted on my boring yet interesting life. my opinions are intense but most true and real.
~Kris ~<:)
